Sunday, 30 January 2011


не читайте ничего.
ситуацииситцации. не обрацайте внимания. суть это человек, который попал в ту или иную ситуацию, поэтому мы возвращаемся к тому от чего начали.
у меня есть какие-то глупые фотографии с ифона из сейнтмартинса и с улицы. если будет время сегодня – я выложу. а вообще я в работе с ног до головы.
здорово всё!

Friday, 28 January 2011


[for those of you who decided to give it a try i'm putting post scriptum at the beginning]
ps don't even try to put it into the google translate!

i'm making the worst things to myself. it was all in order in my head on my way home. unfortunately i still can't post from there. it was a hell of a week and it still lasts. i have the only explanation but it's quite sad and loose anyway. it's probably better for me to be wrong. seeking for answers gets you more questions and an even bigger headache. fucking with body, spirit and mind doesn't make you think any straighter. what do you do when you want to get out of your own made up world? trying to get lost in fun, booze or drugs? does it work, eh? and it gets worse when you do have something to compare the whole situation with. something so bright and warm just round the corner. could you turn it upside down and make it sail on course again? it is sick. when you know the right way but do not know how to reach it.
i still can't think for you but i do. you still can't help me but you keep trying. i think that i know better anyway. it's actually the fact that i still can solve those little problems of yours just because i'm let in. and it is still a big deal for me to show you the insights. well i'm trying, ain't i? look at that huge revelation i'm putting here! i'm trying to cooperate really hard.
sometimes i'm trying to understand if it's sensible. people being scared to write for no reason. thinking that i'll think less of them. thinking that i'm too cold, too tough, too whatever they think. you don't place much "likes" on my activities because you know that it doesn't matter for me. or is it my delusion, one of lots? if i was an attention whore would you please me?
what am i doing? i'm writing a long depressive message to no one and myself.
why do i write here? cause i need to put those words down somewhere. and i really hope that most of you would be too lazy to read all of that.
makes sense, eh?

Saturday, 22 January 2011

i'm good.

here are some nice pics from the last 2 days.
having a nice time really.
been a while since i posted here

really nice burberry bag. so cute

i saw that on an exhibition yesterday. i definitely do want one

ceiling in the zabludowicz collection's building.

Monday, 17 January 2011

сны опять.

помню только часть, где глупая полина рассказывала мне как не хочет ехать во францию с данилой (которому туда нужно ехать по работе), потому что у неё нету нормальной шляпы.
это болезнь такая, да? почему мне это снится? нет, я не думаю о шляпах и уж тем более о полинах (привет, пупсик).

а вообще выходные были хорошими. я давно так хорошо не плясала и уж точно никогда мне не писали на фэйсбуке при помощи гугла транслитора. )

Wednesday, 12 January 2011


девочка из группы выложила фотографии с сегодняшнего воркшопа)
вообще это очень крутая штука. осталось придумать предлог почему мне надо печатать на футболках для моего проекта)))
но вообще я почти придумала "you know, we need to have some experimental work for our portfolio which is a term task on ppd. so you won't mind me printing lots and lots and lots of t-shirt prints until summer, will you?"))))

доброе утро!

мой будильник прозвенел через пару секунд после того, как я поснулась во сне и начала паниковать, что на часах 16:30!! я даже не знаю была ли я больше рада, что проснулась воверемя или напугана своим сном..
anyway i'm up and alright!
и у меня есть час перед выходом.. не хочу ехать на автобусе(( но похоже сегодня дождик зарядил на весь день, а у меня нет плаща...

this is it.

i've finally managed to cope with all stupid stuff that bothered me over last time. it was quite tough but i'm happy i'd gotten over it.
new term is on. new task is great. have a to-do list to complete. signed up for screen printing workshop tomorrow. will spend the rest of the day in the library working on project. may be will go on yoga thursday morning before classes and hire myself a film cam afterwards.
so many things to do. i'd better leave now. gotta have some sleep – long day tomorrow.
have a good day you all!

Thursday, 6 January 2011

Tuesday, 4 January 2011

посмешить что ли вас?

вспомнила, что когда в день после рождества ехала на велосипеде, передо мной вывернула мусорная машина. и знаете чем она пахла?

Sunday, 2 January 2011

i do know that you're not very happy with my last posts but i guess it's better than nothing, isn't it?
i put my thoughts the way they come to me. sorry bout that.


just watched 2 of 3 bbc films "russian godfathers".
you should see my face right now. never thought that kind of contempt s possible.

Saturday, 1 January 2011


i do not want anyone. not speaking of needing someone. if you can't get it it's your own problem. some people need voices outside their heads. i don't.
it doesn't bother me at all. it's you who bother me. which proves my first thought.

happy new year!